I reached a point in life where I had to admit to myself that the “perfect love” I had longed for was just not going to happen… So I concentrated on building the very best life for myself that I could — the kind of life where I was in charge and had things just the way I wanted them. I found things to fill my time and developed other dreams. And then, smack in the middle of my organized life, YOU showed up, caught me off guard, and completely threw my heart for a loop! You see, I could tell right away that you weren’t just some passing fancy. I think I’m old for that. I could feel that you are different… special… not to be missed… and I hope to be right! So now I’m doing my very best to make a special place in my life and in my heart for you. I intend to let you know about it gradually and the most mature way that I can. But please be patient with me. Remember, you weren’t supposed to happen… But I am so grateful and so happy that you just popped up. I just admire you, not just because of your charm or whatever physical attributes that you have. I’m just amazed to discover your hidden intelligence and humor. You seem so different. You have your ways of irritating me and suddenly make me laugh. You have made me smile and speechless for no reason at all. You may have even caught me staring at you and I find it really funny. Honestly, I have been trying to avoid you because I was never ready and never even thought I could still be in this situation. But it breaks my heart every time I choose to avoid you. I know this could be surprising for you but these have been on my mind for quite some time. And this is the most weird of me, taking the other side of the road, not very me, but I’m glad I turned myself and decide to take a chance again…
